Tuesday, June 07, 2005
I ponned my touch rugby training today. It's my officially first lesson and i ponned it. Lol. Well, i dont feel like going and my friends joinning touch rugby werent going for training today, thus so i decided that i might as well dont go too. Well, you can say i'm a follower or wadever. I'm immune to comments. Lol. Dont ask me why. Lol. I dont feel anything when people say me or anything. Well, i think it depends on how they comment me. Of course, if it's something ugly, i might either feel angry or sad. Lol.
Well, i think i am going to calvin's chalet. Well, it's his church chalet. I'm like the only non-christian over there. I am scared that i may make some actions which might be some of their taboos. They would later look at me or hint me something which would make me feel awkward or embarrassed. Lol. I dont know. lol. Well, of course, i'm going without any parental consent thus i have to leave very early. lol. Haiz. I can only stay there for only for a few hours and after that i would be going soon. Hahaz. I dont know whether would the chalet be fun but i hoped it would be. lol.
After smsing calvin, i thought of my parents going overseas today. I think they have reached their destination very early. Well, i think i have an imaginative mind as i thought of the plane which my parents took crashes and my parents were both dead. I dont know whether is it because i watched too much drama serials or not. So after habouring that thought, i feel guilty and unease as i am going to the chalet without letting my parents know. haiz. Instead of stopping to think of that disastrous thought, i continue to think further. I think of the aftermath if my parents died in the crash(touch wood). I dont really wish my parents to die because of some selfish reasons. Lol. I dont know whether i'm selfish or not, but till now, i'm still quite dependent on my parents only for some stuffs. Haiz. But i think i might go to his chalet but i cant really make much promises to that actually, especially if something crops up. Haiz.
Today, i heard that there's stock for the labcoat so i went into the store and asked whether there was stock for the labcoat and obviously, there was still no stock. It had went out of stock yesterday. OMG lor. I have practical on thurs and fri and i really need it. If i dont have labcoat, i cannot step into the lab and doing practical is important as it took some portion in my overall results. Thus, of course i borrowed labcoats from my friends. It's only temporary and eventually i still need to buy a labcoat for myself which i would be using for 3 years. Lol.
Pinghui wanted to change course. He said that he doesnt like the modules in the course in year 2 and 3. Well, i think he should make careful choices before filling in the form online. Haiz. I dont know what to say to him. Haiz. Getting tired more easily now. Lol.
I have stopped following with that group of friends already. I am with another group of friends. Lol. I think i would be much more happier in sp liao. Hope so bah.
Me out.
took a picture of love/6/07/2005 06:43:00 PM
